(or at least try)

Okay, so, I'm anxious because I'm waiting on an answer from a job interview.
Not so bad.
Oh, and I got art thief'd.
Nooooooooooot a eshappeh (yes that's a word) camper right noa.

Make matters better?

I just tried to have a heart to heart with my sis. And talk her out of her depressed, "the world hates me, everything's my fault, omg death just take me, no one would care" shit. And she was like
"Oh, I upset you, there I go again. Hurting everyone. I need to just learn to lie to myself and others" and angsty fucking BULLSHIT I've been dealing with for years, particularly since she got sick.
and I'm like "whatever, we're tired, we need sleep, goodnight, I love you." and I got "yeah, right" as a reply before she left.
So now I've spilled my guts trying to help her and said all these things that were better left unsaid, all in the name of helping, and not only did it make no difference but now our relationship is fucked up.

As if my anxiety about my interview and being art theif'd which I'm not that upset about anymore, really) weren't bad enough, now she pulls this shit, and you know what??? I warned her. I TOLD HER. "I'm not in the mood to have this conversation" but she kept pushing. And when she didn't like the result, she just turned away, like I knew she would. But I can only take so fucking much, ya'know?!
When I tried to explain she wasn't hurting anyone by doing this one thing I don't wanna get into, she laughed in my face and was like "pfft, right~"

I mean...
I don't know whether to be pissed off or sad...

I just can't fucking DEAL with this SHIT anymore....

I'm going to get some sleep, I need to get rid of the bags under my eyes and the doom-cloud over my head.

~ What the shit, man?
Rachel